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I am happy

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 06:19:01 GMT

I am so infatuated with one person right now that its ridiculous. Also bad BAD news!

And Sex and the City makes me soo happy!! :)

it just hit me

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 02:02:28 GMT

that I don't give a fuck anymore.
ha!

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 19:55:33 GMT

Im really upset and lonely right now.

I'm not being negative or cynical..

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 17:27:48 GMT

Just observative of my life..

I learned.. these past few weeks that..

-nothing in my life lasts.
-friends decieve you.
-boys just don't get it.
-I just have to be blunt sometimes.
-I just might be a binge drinker, so I really seriously need to watch myself.. something I clearly haven't been doing.
-People lie to you. Even best friends.
-I don't hate Georgia as much as I thought I did. I have learned to make peace with it.
-Boys with girlfriends don't leave their stupid girlfriends, they just keep cheating.
-I tend to "lead on". Boys need to realize that its not leading on.. its me not wanting them. Get over it bitches.
-I just don't trust guys. Or girls for that matter.
-I need to stop being so shy sometimes. Its annoying!
-People don't call you back! ha! I love hearing "Ill call you later" or "Ill call you tomorrow" when its not true.

ANYWAYS on a happier note.. I'm leaving for Spring break on Tuesday! :) I can't wait to just relax on the beach and not worry about shit!

perfect day

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 23:09:20 GMT

Something about today just makes me happy. And it feels really good to be happy. It might the fact its beautiful out, and its sunny, and I don't have a care about anything. I love it!

Emo Mode

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 06:13:44 GMT

I don't really understand how its so possible to feel so alone while so not actually alone. I have been having the hardest time possible trusting some people who are close to me lately. I also really don't even think someone who I care sooo much about really even appreciates anything I do for her. Its pretty fucked up, but whatever. I'm a little confused on what I want to do about everything.

jesus christ

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 17:36:20 GMT

Last night was ridiculous. And not in a good way.

Im in love!

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 21:18:25 GMT

With this weather! It feels amazinggggg. I wish it was like this all year long!!!!!!!!!!!

it's official..

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 00:15:24 GMT

Sex and the City and a good workout is my ultimate mind settling therapy.

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 05:29:50 GMT

I think I may have a slight sleeping disorder. And I can't wait for spring break and summer! I can't wait to chill in my bathing suit allll day because I don't have to be in school. I can't wait to stay up all night with my friends just hanging out and enjoying life. AH I just can't wait!! :)

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 03:08:32 GMT

i hate boys. fuck 'em all.

Sat, 17 Feb 2007 20:50:59 GMT

I'm weirdly optimistic today. I just feel like smiling and laughing! haha Im such a weirdo sometimes.

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 22:35:29 GMT

Oh how I love the movie 'A Lot Like Love'. It's so good! Everytime I watch it, it just makes me all happy and hopeful.

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 17:23:22 GMT

Happiness is a state of mind. It's not dictated by outward circumstances -- really. Learning to see a situation as it is, not as you hoped or feared it would be, is one of the keys to being content.

Sweet well I suck at "seeing things how they are" so I guess I just dont win haha. I dont care, Im getting soooo shitfaced tonight that nothing that's been making me sad lately is going to matter :)

I bought lottery tickets last night. haha.

Happy Valentines Day to me.

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 09:34:34 GMT

Horoscope:
We may not be very lighthearted on this Valentine's Day, with the Moon in cautious Capricorn. Our discomfort is emphasized by irritating quincunxes from restrictive Saturn to both impulsive Mars and loving Venus. It feels as if our dreams are just one step beyond our reach. It may be thoroughly annoying that we must meet our obligations before we can experience pleasure. Nevertheless, enjoyment must be postponed until our work is done.

Why are these always right? Whoever said the the raw thruth hurts, was right. There are certain things I never want to know about, and just got informed. And for some reason, it makes me sad. It shouldn't, but it does. I hate that it makes me sad, because I feel like I am holding onto something that's just never going to be there for me ever again, no matter how badly I want it. I am usually so quick at getting over things, why is this so different?

I feel like I am stuck. I feel like I am seriously getting nowhere here at Kennesaw. I hate this fucking school. I like my few close friends here, but I just am not happy here. I don't know what to do. I want to just pack up and go somewhere new, somewhere I don't know anyone, and somewhere I can start a new life. I hate Georgia. I hate all these fucking southern accents I constantly hear. I want out. I'm sick of the boring life I have here. IM SO FRUSTRATED. And I don't know what to do about it, which is the worst part since I can't fix it.

redemption.

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 06:10:43 GMT

something I had been desperately hoping for just fucking happened.

blahhhh

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 18:14:30 GMT

I am in one of those moods again where you're depressed/anxious for no reason at all. OR maybe there is a reason, but its subconscious, and that sucks even more because figuring it out is a bitch.

haha, I'm watching shopgirl on t.v and it's really funny. I love awkward but not almost sex scenes. And when cats jump on you when you're doin' it and bite your dude's balls. This movie rules.

how it is.

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 20:19:22 GMT

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore,
Before you take a swing, I wonder what are we fighting for,
When I say out loud, I want to get out of this, I wonder,
Is there anything I'm going to miss, I wonder
How's it going to be, When you don't know me,
How's it going to be, When you're sure I'm not there,
How's it going to be, When there is no one there to talk to,
Between you and me, 'Cause I don't care,
How's it going to be,
How's it going to be,

Where we used to laugh, There's a shouting match,
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch,
A silence I can't ignore,
Like . . The hammock by the doorway we spent time in, Swing empty,
don't see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me, I wonder

How's it going to be, When it goes down,
How's it going to be, When you're not around,
How's it going to be, When you find out there was nothing,
Between you and me, 'Cause I don't care,
How's it going to be,

How's it going to be
When you don't know me, any more
And How's it going to be

Want to get myself back in again,
The soft dive of oblivion.
Want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion, oblivion

How's it going to be, When you don't know me, anymore,
How's it going to be,
How's it going to be,
How's it going to be.

I seriously suck at life.

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 16:24:02 GMT

alcohol ruins my life. The end.

save the drama fo' yo' mama

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 21:31:32 GMT

This semester seriously couldn't have started out worse. 3 of my friends hate each other, a boy is fucking with one of my friend's head, and just a lot of shit has gone down. I really don't care for any of it, because I think drama is stupid and my friend shouldn't have even gotten involved with the boy with the girlfriend, but what can I do do change someone's actions? I can't. All I want is my friends to stop hating each other and atleast make peace. Im not asking for sincere forgiveness, just a truce.

Also, some girl chose the wrong day to be a little whiny bitch today. Words of wisdom: don't have a long distance relationship. They never work, so don't act all surprised when your boy decides he wants to have sex with someone else. And mostly, don't message me asking for help and be a straight up bitch about it.

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 02:51:13 GMT

I am stuck in a rut. I don't feel 100% happy. I mean everything in my life is perfectly fine, and I have nothing to be complain about, but I feel subconsciously depressed. I don't even know what's causing it. I think I'm mildly sad about a certain person basically abondoning me and our friendship, me going to a school I hate, and a list of other things that I'd rather not get into right now. I kind of feel like I am wasting time and I hate wasting time. I just feel like something is missing from my life. blah.

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 08:04:01 GMT

I hate Kennesaw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

homesick

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 19:47:54 GMT

today's horoscope:
You say enough with the tough love -- where are the warm and fuzzy comforts of home? The astrological energies say that this will benefit you more than it hurts. Put a grin on your face and suck it up.

I miss my mom. and living at home. and not having to look after myself
:(

I'm watching the Last Kiss. Its amazing how people manage to screw such good things up just because they are curious. Ironic how things work.

I HATE JANUARY. Its gross. and rainy. and depressing. I have a weird bummed out feeling and I want it to go away.

january sucks

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 01:05:49 GMT

its cold. its dark. its just a shitty month. Its right after the holidays which are always happy. Its making me depressed. I think too much. Im bored. I have nothing to do. I can't wait for spring. Its my favorite season. You can wear anything you want. Its just a nice time of year. Good things always happen to me in spring. I want it to come now!

one last chance for one last dance

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 20:58:02 GMT

SO I have come to the conclusion that I am one of the most dfifficult people I know. I know what I want but I also don't.. When I have the chance for something very good, I don't want it. When I have the chance for something heartbreaking and extremely emotionally draining, I take it. I basically make the wrong decisions for myself, and nothing good ever comes out of them. I am however, trying very hard to change that. It'll be hard, but its possible. I am starting.. now.